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	2009.11.30  00.48 why is it I always want to eat cookies, it's almost 1am and all I can think about is baking some fucking cookies right now so I can indulge. Haven't really been up to much. I want to travel really bad.

	2009.07.15  01.36 unsure I hear them talking, not through their mouths but their eyes. Welcoming, warning and scared. How can you tell them to run without being heard?

	2009.01.06  00.33 update Still no job, going crazy sorta... I feel very unproductive, even though I paint, write or go hiking every week. I want to go back to school but can't afford it and I need to go to ohio to visit aj her dads going to die and she needs my support. I just don't know if I have the funds to make it out there. I'm stuck in a rut. If anyone knows any leads please inform me. Thank you.

	2008.11.29  19.46 update Okay so in recent events, I was fired, so I've been hiking on the weekends with some friends mostly to stay active. I have high hopes that I will get another job soon. Hopefully a better one. I'm working on getting new head shots so my agency can send them out to theatrical agents for me. I feel healthy, I'm in great shape and I'm happy... What more could you ask for. Money would be cool...

	2008.10.08  21.23 interning at the keyclub Doing sound for bands is not a hard job, but there's still so much more I need to learn. I hope this upcoming paycheck is around 300 dollars cause if not then I'm screwed. Anyway on a lighter note I went to 3 different 99 cent stores today looking for these glow in the dark glasses and finally found some after the 3rd one. So I brought some to work for some fun times. Woo... I'll be venturing out to moscow tonight. Then home to watch friends! Rocking out! Okay bye

	2008.10.06  12.55 court didn't go so bad Went to court just so that I could assign an appointment for feb.! So now what? Now I watch a movie then get ready for my audition. Side note I would like to go to england. I've never been and I'm a sucker for accents. Maybe australia...

	2008.10.05  23.21 good news So about 5 people messaged me today saying they saw my nfl commercial! Stoked about that. Not stoked about going to court tomorrow. Has to be done though. Aye me. I'm hungry but I don't feel like cooking so maybe I'll just go to bed. Night

	2008.10.01  11.43 last night I went to my work with Ed and Christian to go see George Harrisons son band play. It wasn't bad I just prefered the band that played before them. Afterwards we headed over to kung pao kitty to keep Jared company. It was quasi dead which is not a big surprise on tues. It was fun all in all.

	2008.09.27  21.00 went to the museum today!!! Skip picked me up at 2pm and we went to the science museum where we learned about air pressure and the human body. It was kind of disappointing that the big fake lady "Tess" didn't eat us... Oh well on to live another day. Now I get to work a russian dance night tonight and am going to work on this crossword puzzle and figure it out. Maybe write my book a little too. Hopefully I'll get out of here by a decent hour, but probably not... Oh and Skip made fun of the way I ate chipotle today as well... I'm a slow eatter as fuck... Damn

	2008.09.26  15.33 worst paycheck ever 2 weeks of work and I get 250 bones... Wow this sucks good thing I don't have bills or anything... Wait... Oh well I'll figure something out, I always do. Anyway I'm at work typing this right now about to leave in a minute though just so I can be back at 630 to start working for the night. I'm going to the museum tomorrow and I'm clearly stoked about it! I haven't been to the museum since I was in high school. Geez that was a long time ago... Fuck yeah stoked. My friend's trying to get me a trip to disneyland too. Last time I was there was with Marc. Like 2 or 3 years ago damn. I miss working halloween haunt. I'm going to go as a visitor this year though if I can scrounge up some bills. I want to get a bike too.. So much stuff crap ass.... Okay well I'm off got to go to target and to deposit my check and to finish my laundry. Cheers!

	2008.09.24  17.24 last nights party Okay so last night was Kelly's and my bday party at kung pow kitty last night. So many people showed up, I had a great time. I just noticed there's shit on my ceiling, no clue how it got there. My shower needs to be fixed too its worse then ever. Tried vegan mac and cheese for the first time today, doesn't taste like mac and cheese, but it still tastes good. So I'm okay with it. Tonight I work.

	2008.09.23  13.02 I haven't been on here in quite awhile So little updating... I've done a couple of shoots with hot topic, just did a nfl commercial too. My birthday was on sunday, went to my moms then came home and showered tried to hurry to go to cinespace before closing but no luck by the time I finished getting ready it was too late, so skip and I went and got late night del. Tonight is kelly and my bday party it should be very interesting. Stoked!

	2007.06.19  12.04 I guess blondes can have fun too Okay so in recent events I decided that I needed a change so I went kinda drastic and turned my head blonde ha ha ha... I'm digging the new look, and I'm getting great responce from it. We'll see how long it lasts. Now I'm off gotta go job hunting. Cheers

	2007.02.02  04.30 creeped out Lately I've been having a demon that visits me in my dream. In the dream he is in the form of an old lady at a home. I go to visit this lady because someone tells me it's my grandmother. I take a look at her and I say that isn't my grandma right after I say that is when I realize that it is a demon and not an actual person. Needless to say I panic for a minute but then I tell it it's not welcome and the dream ends. I don't know what is causing this and it's been boggling my mind perhaps you think there's no such thing and that I'm imagining these things or that it's just a dream. I know it's real. now I should get some sleep because scott leaves for tour tomorrow and I'm bummed out because I'll miss him. If you believe in prayer I say do it. As hard and as often as possible. Mood: contemplative

	2007.01.29  03.56 okay so yeah I rarely ever post in my LJ... Let's see... Lately I've been stressing because I am jobless and I need one bad because its making me an insomniac and I need money none the less... I have an interview tomorrow with what looks like a promising job... I'll cross my fingers also a prayer or 2 shouldn't hurt... I miss a lot of people kinda makes me sad... I also have an amazing boyfriend that puts up with my weirdness... First guy in awhile and I'm happy. I miss my mescru although I got to see them this week I need them more in my life... Right now I guess that's about it ohhh and some photographers are taking interest in me... I have a unique face ha ha ha... Wish I was a little taller though... Cheers to all Mood: stressed Music: scott snoring

	2006.02.24  12.57 hi scott I'm sitting here and travis is smoking... fun fun fun

	2004.12.17  01.52 myspace is down So good ol' myspace pops up a window of pack man and I turn to livejournal... It's been awhile and I'm not quite sure what to write... I've been letting the family guy repeat it's opening credit page, you know the one where you choose which episode you want to watch on the dvd... I could probably recite it, but I wont.. I'm tired so I will go... Later. Mood: good Music: family guy

	2004.07.20  21.55 so yeah a lot of things have happened but I'm here to say goodbye to my good friend Josh Adams... You were always there for me when I needed you and I can't believe you are gone... I wish I could have said one last goodbye... I hope you and your kid sis are in a better place now... I love you... Miss you so much....

	2004.02.05  21.38 a few things I've decided 1)when 'm sick people think I'm on drugs or drunk 2)When I actually am drunk I like to talk to flowers and ask them about their colors and they end up tragically dying when I pick them off of their stem 3)I sometimes wake up vertical 4)it's winter and winter means frozen balls (mine that is) 5)I hate the word nipple but I think chlymidia is a pretty word 6)I used to be able to spell in highschool now I'm just a dumbass 7)smoking causes lung cancer and birth defects (I'm going to die anyway why not go out like half the people in this world does) 8)If noah's ark really happened where did black people come from (same for umm just about everyone else) (was noah into beastiality?) 9)kids are cool till they learn about the opposite sex and the opposite sex now has a form of disease called you guesses it kooties 10)kooties are real 11)I've decided that there's not much to write about anymore so I'm off... Bye xoxo Mood: contemplative Music: the darkness

	2004.01.23  14.27 fill this out for me 1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 2. Am I lovable? 3. How long have you known me? 4. When and how did we first meet? 5. What was your first impression? 6. Do you still think that way about me now? 7. What do you think my weakness is? 8. Do you think I'll get married? 9. What makes me happy? 10. What makes me sad? 11. What reminds you of me? 12. If you could give me anything what would it be? 13. How well do you know me? 14. When's the last time you saw me? 15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 16. Do you think I could kill someone? 17. Describe me in one word. 18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same? 19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? 20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

	2003.12.21  22.12 Had one of the most amasing dates on Friday night His name is Dakota... He's 22 he has tattoos... We started the date off with vegan thai food then we continued on to where we saw pretty in pink on the big screen (his idea) Then we headed down to 7 11 for some coffee and ice cream and we sat there and people watched for like 2 hours.... It was so awesome!!! Then I drove him home... I got to see him last night too!!! So great!!! XOXO Mood: sick Music: wumpscut

	2003.11.23  15.44 so this stupid bitch Nicole I'm sure most of you have seen me with her... She used to be my friend till she fucking keyed FUCK YOU into my car.... After I found her a place to stay when she got fucking kicked out of her house... She keyed my car over a stupid fucking straightening iron witch the stupid dumbass left at my house... Oh yeah and for all of you who don't know her real age she's 17 so unless you want to go to jail for being a pedifile I would suggest not getting with her.... I think I might post pictures of the stupid whore later... Hope all of you for my sake will please stop talking to her.... She's a fucking bitch and I hope she gets impregnated by some guy..... XOXO Music: death on wensday in my head

	2003.11.13  22.02 SO my two jobs ROCK!. Anyway I have been busy with work lately, and I have a huge crush on this one guy and I think he may like me too! So I'm happy.... My hair rocks really it does... I'm going to see my mom on sat so I'm excited cause I miss her ssooooooooo much... I love her! Mommy I love you and I miss you :(.... I'm gonna go cry now Mood: sad Music: outcast

	2003.10.28  04.31 so wondering in the depth of this massive clowd of ash and tree remains The ashes have been messing up my sinuses, and it's been bumming me out... On a lighter note I got my hair cut, and now it's the shortest it's ever been... I look like a fucking punk rocker. People tell me they like it but I don't know if they're being serious or not... It's okay it's just hair, it'll grow back... In the meantime I have hats to be wearing... Went to Bang on sat. and it sucked... Well seeing Nikki was fucking wonderful cause I missed her like more then you'll ever know but the rest was lame... This week I'm just going to go to 82 and the rest is done... Halloween is going to be a blast! Oh I had my drum lesson today and I broke my first stick and this has only been the 5th practice.... My teacher ws proud of me... I have to get new bands into the studio... Anyway I hope you are all doing well... Have a great day... Cheers Mood: listless Music: the smiths

	2003.10.23  20.53 guys bum me out but what's new... gonna start giving up soon Mood: bummed Music: buchanan